i will never forget how i met you. the first time we met.
August 6th : you chatted with me. accidentally sent me a message that wasn’t meant for me actually. it was your birthday. and you sent me “tnx” . which gave me a reason to wish you. and then it happened. i met you.
then it so happened that i fell in love. that easy. i also did not understand why and how. but i did not question any of the sudden events. because i was grateful that you came into my life.
i did not listen to what others tell me. because i have my own thoughts, life and responsibilities which gives me the right and strength to handle every decisions i make. and i made a good one.
i will never forget when 2 became 1.
August 8th : it all started with a smile. you flirt, i flirted back. it was pretty obvious that you liked me. and i guess it was also obvious that i like you too. and then it came up to the point that you said it. you said “i love you”. and it started there.
my life began. you filled my day, my life with so much smiles and so much fun. no doubt, i won’t forget you. because when i see even your name, a smile appears. when i needed someone, then i’ll think of you and everything will be alright.
you complete me. i learned how to love again. thanks to you, you were the best gift of God that i’ve ever received. but i took you for granted. and i’m sorry.
and now, August 15th : i’m starting to let go. it was yesterday, when we both gave up on each other. it was yesterday when i started to listen to others. and they said, it’s always difficult to revive the decisions that we both made, and that was to break up.
i said it, i fell in love with him so easily. but it doesn’t mean that i can fall out of love easily as well. when we thought it was gone we chose to let go. but then i realized, it was never gone, it was hidden for us to seek and not to let go.,but it’s difficult, to put things back, to bring back what was lost and to mend what was broken..so i guess, we have to start over again, without each other.
before, i smile when i think of you. because i have you. but now, i shed a tear. because i miss you.
i love you. i still do. and i will always love you.
they said, don’t be sad because he left, be happy because he became yours even for a while. so i’m trying my best to smile even if it hurts deep inside. i’m trying my best to smile, because it brings me back to where we start. and i’m trying all the best i can to smile, because then only, i’ll see you smiling again.
you’ll be in my heart, forever. i am happy for you. i love you.
let me start by gathering all the words and strength.
i wanna start by saying, I really tried. I really tried everything, as in everything i mortal can do. But i just can’t get over you. Yes, i told you that I’ll go on and that I am fine without you. Hoped you realized, that i can lie to you or to anyone about my feelings, but i can never lie to myself, especially to my heart.
no matter what they say, who they teas me with, where they take me to every blind dates. It’s still you that I wish who was with me. I can’t help it, hope you understand. Hope you know that i never wanted this.
but what’s not mine is not mine. So I can’t ask you to come back. And I won’t. But I miss you.
p.s, I’ll try harder, if i fail, it ain’t my fault no more.